Salam lovelies...

Yeah, I just wached the movie. It's a sweet movie and it even sweeter if you are really expecting. Too bad it is just not my rezeki yet. I am not complaining, it just somehow I felt it is quite too long for me. I've been married for 5months and some of you might say like still early. If you are at my place, you will feel like a year. Seriously.

I can't help myself from feeling mad at one of my friend. She got married a month before me and when I am back to the office after marriage leave, she told me she's a month pregnant and yet keep on saying that both of them did'nt ready for a baby. And she kept on saying it. If you were at my place, then you know how I can't bear with her. It's not easy at my place and she just can't be thankful enough. Recently, she informed that she's carrying a twin and for me it's double the joy. Unfortunately, at her side it double her trouble.

She've been telling everyone that she's pregnant and she didn't ready for it. And it just made me sick of her. I always think at the bright side, that she's actually happy and excited but she just anxious for something that come earlier than expected.

Rezeki mudah for her. Allah knows the best time for us to get a baby. Maybe, we both don't really ready physically and mentally eventhough we feel like we are more than ready. Right?

I met a friend last week. We got married at the same week. I know I shouldn't asked him about his wife. But I just can't help myself. His wife is 3-months pregnant and I was trying my best to congratulates him with the happy face. We are having lunch at that time and I just couldn't finish my lunch. For those who've been at my shoes, you know how it feels right?

Hmmm.....been talking about the pregnancy issue again. Sorry and I blame the hormones. Haha. Frustrated everytime Im having my period. However, still glad knowing that Im normal, still having period regularly. Plus, I am so stress this weekend because Im bringing home a pile of workload and still couldn't finish it eventhough I've been doing it like 100-hours :(

And tomorrow is Monday already. Penattt!!

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Ada banyak version mengenai hari ibu. Ustaz azhar idrus cakap haram sebab kalau tengok sejarah asal usul sambutan hari ibu tu. Tapi apa-apa pun yang i pegang adalah nawaitu. Dan yang penting adalah setiap hari adalah hari ibu. I am far away from home, jadi tiadalah sambutan untuk meraikan. Dan I x pernah celebrate pun. I kan pemalu. Kalau call pun just wish cepat-cepat. Tapi I selalu panjatkan doa untuk mak I. Sape tak sayang mak kan?

There are so many things yang my mom ever did to me. Too many..

Ingat lagi, dulu I study kat boarding school. Dulu kami sekeluarga hidup susah. We don't even have a car. Ada moto je 2 bijik. Prinsip mak I, mak I taknak ada hutang. Kalau mati,hutang tak abes bayar nyusahkan orang yang hidup ja. Mak I adalah pengurus wang terbaek. Ever.

Moto yang 2 bijik tu la, guna buat angkut barang pergi berniaga kat kedai. Kalau nak jalan jauh macam hantar abang I pergi UTM Skudai, kami pinjam kete arwah pakteh. Masa tok I ada teksi dulu, selalu gak pinjam teksi atok I. So, dah biasa kalo tengah jalan-jalan tu orang tahan teksi yang kami sekeluarga naek. And now, kadang-kadang bila naek keta, ada orang tahan teksi/bas kat belakang, mesti teringat zaman naek teksi dulu.

Masa kt asrama, mak I without fail akan datang lawat I every week. Datang je mesti bawa nasik, lauk, buah, beskot, sabun mandi, ubat gigi dan segala barang keperluan. And mak I pergi visit I naek moto okay, merempit sorang-sorang bawah panas mentari. Kat tempat duduk belakang tu la, mak I letak pelantar besi dan ikat barang2 yang nak dibawa. Mak I buat macam tu every single week sepanjang 5 tahun I kat asrama. Gigih kan mak I?

Kalau mak I datang dengan abah, barang yang nak dibawa tu mak I akan pangku sepanjang hampir 1jam setengah tu. Last year I balik kampung then bawak parents I pergi Kuala Nerang yang mana I akan lalu sekolah lama I. I drove the car and I rasa ya Allah jauhnya nak pass by my school. Just imagine kalau bawak moto, macam mana kan?

Sampai sekarang kalau I teringat, I akan rasa yang I takkan sanggup buat macam tu kat anak I nanti. Bukan calang-calang orang bole buat macam mak I. Hebat giler.

Even I bukan la kaya/berjaya sekarang tapi alhamdulillah dapat tolong my parents. True enough, education can help us change our life. I don't think I have my parents proud yet, because as a daughter I am trying my very best to make them happy. I'm glad that I never ask money from my parents after I earned my own money. All I want is just to make them happy.

Love both of them so much. Especially when I realized is not easy to work and at the same tine taking care of the family, doing the laundry, house chores and etc.

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Salam and happy Sunday everyone!!

Am going to share simple and quick breakfast for you guys to prepare for the loved ones.

I am using bloggerdroid to type this post and I hope it answering why the pictures 1st before salam and I start merapu. Tak boleh kan picture kat tengah2 post? Ke bole, I je yang taktau. Haha.

What you need are:

(1) white bread - im using gardenia

(2) tuna mayonese - ayambrand, i perah limau nipis sket nak hilangkan bau ikan dan gaul dan panaskan dalam microwave

(3) white egg - act as glue

Okay. It's sooo easy peasy you ols.

You need to roll the bread senipis yang mungkin. Makin nipis makin crunchy. Then, put the tuna as much as you want. Butttt,tuna yang berlebihan bisa buat inti tekeluar dari roti. Lepastu gulung,macam you ols selalu buat popia tu dan gamkan dengan telor putih. Dah siap, boleh terus deep fried. And serve it while it hot. Kalau tengok pic tuna roll i kat atas memang hancuss sebab bajet bole multitask la kunun. Sambil goreng sambil sidai baju. Ya ampunn, tapi yang hitam tu plak yg rangup. Ekekek~ cover abes. Eh eh, roti ats and bawah sekali yang kita selalu x suka makan tu yang paling sedap bila dah di goreng. Cuma part mencanai nak bagi nipis tu lemah sikit la. Perlu extra hard work.

And we will only use a little of the egg ja. The balance (together with yellow egg) I akan buat scramble egg pastu nanti makan sekali ngan tuna roll. Tuna juga bole diganti dengan sardin. Tapi sardin need extra work sebab kena masakkan dan hancurkan sardin dulu, letak limau nipis dan air asam jawa dan masak sampai kering. Kalau tuna bole gaul dan panaskan dalam microwave aje. I kan tak rajin nak sedia kuali nak masak sardin dan part nak basuh tu yang I paling malas. Hehe.

Bear in mind, jangan buat ne tetiap hari. Sebabb sangatlah unhealthy. You know, deep fried, white bread and the soft texture of bread yang handal absorb oil are the 3-kill elements in our diet. Kalau sesekali time malas nk prepare this for breakfast okay la. Kata nak kurus kan? Hehe

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Whoaaaa.. Tajuk nak sensasi aje kan? Lalalalala~ But, it is for real. Though it is nothing much for me to get excited. Kakti the owner of FINGER STORY yang should get all the credit. Hee.

I just told her,what type of flowers I want, the color combo and the grey wrap on the pillow. And the mastermind would always be Kakti.

I don't have my laptop with me right now, so i cannot upload the upclose pictures. I might review on the hantaran later.

I am a happy and satisfied customer. To those northern brides, you might want to consider Kakti as your hantaran deco. She also did my guestbook deco, bride's room deco and hand bouquets. Going to review on it laterr.

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Assalamualaikum lovelies

I have a friend who think money is everything. Yeah, dia ingat dia ada everything in the world. Dapat suami yang gaji masyuk so dia tend to look at us (yang gaji mencukupi tapi tak semewah macam dia and living a normal life) ne macam pelik dan tak boleh terima. Dia suka judge orang based on gaji. Macam kalau ada orang gaji rendah daripada dia buat something yang dia marah, dia akan cakap 'no wonder la,tengok la job nature dia camne'. Boleh?

Thanks to Allah yang bagi I kesabaran banyak-banyak nak face this kind of friend.

What made me write on this post is when i heard the ustaz from 'Tanyalah Ustaz' said 'Tak hidup mewah takpe,janji Allah bagi nikmat'. So trueee. He said,nikmat tu macam dapat tidur lena malam-malam, anak-anak pandai mengaji, hati tenang, kesihatan baik-baik aja. Do you know how I felt? Yes, I felt better. Ustaz tu buat I rasa syukur alhamdulillah. The first point dah cukup buat orang yang appreciate good sleep macam I ne rasa I need that nikmat more than having luxurious life.

Bila kte kejar kebendaan (duniawi), sentiasa je rasa tak cukup. Contoh paling dekat, i've been wanted to have coach handbag ever since i started working. And now, i already have it. So, what's next? New design handbag? or strive for gucci/chanel/salvatore ferragamo/burberry pulak? See, it's not going to end. Sentiasa rasa tak cukup. Nak lagi, nak lagi dan lagi.

Sentiasa bersederhana dan bersyukur dengan nikmat melimpah ruah, inshaallah kita dah memang hidup mewah dalam definis kepuasan kita sendiri :)

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Am currently missing my husband.  Haha (okay,it's so weird after claimed that I miss him pastu gelak berdekah HAHA). I am not really good expressing my feelings publicly.

Since getting married, we both tak pernah berpisah. I mean the longest pun time working hours. So, bila my hubs cakap nak pergi mencadat sotong kat terengganu, i was like okay,sure,no problem. Butt,bila dah dekat tarikh nak pergi which is pagi tadi i memang dah gelabah,risau. I'm afraid that I'm not going to survive.

Yeah,no matter how independent I am all this while (before married) bila somehow lepas kawen I have my hubs all the time terus rasa berdikari tu hilang. Sungguh. Dulu masa kt rumah sewa di flat yang kawasan banyak kes curi, foreigner ramai bukan main, i berani tido sorang berhari-hari bila housemate i balik kampung. But now, dekat umah yang sistem security bole diharapkan i memang tak berani stay sorang-sorang.

I was so clumsy today. I dont know, jadi tak keruan bila my hubs jauh dimata. I have to fry the ikan bilis twice sebab hangit. The first time was because I was on the phone with my hubs pastu letak telefon terus terlupa ikan bilis and terus pergi cuci toilet. Sekali tengok rumah berasap kelam kabut ikan bilis dah hitam legam. Then, goreng lagi sekali sambil basuh periuk. Tiba-tiba hilang ingatan,basuh periuk tak habis,paip air tak tutup terus pergi susun tupperware dalam almari. Terbau hangit, cepat-cepat selamatkan ikan bilis. Agak hangit sedikit,tapi redha sebab dah malas nak goreng semula.

I met one of my bestfriend around 4pm today and she had to leave early. So, memikirkan yang takut tak sempat maghrib, i decided solat terus kt KL Festival City. Bila bejalan sorang-sorang tu, oh yeah 'i miss him' feeling tu macam menusuk sangat.  :(

Then, sampai kat parking keta,baru i realized yang i tak locked the car. Boleh? Again, kelam kabut check kot2 ada benda missing. Haish, pastu boleh pulak wrong way. I dont know what I have in mind.

Dah drive dalam 15mins, i noticed few cars angkat lampu tinggi kat I? I was like,????. Rupanya tak bukak lampu kereta. Duhhhhhh

I decided to overnight at my Parents-In-Law,sebab surely i tak berani tido sorang. So, now while typing this, i am hardly sleep and berdoa i akan cepat lelap so esok cepat datang. Hew.

Husband i pergi 2hari semalam je tapi i gelisah sungguh. Bila baca few blogs yang the couple staying apart and only met once a week, i rasa ape la sangat kes i ne kan?

It made me realized how dependant am i to my hubs. How marriage life has changed me to and how I lose my sifat berdikari. Sebab dulu I just dont have problem nak duduk makan kat kedai sorang-sorang. Nak keluar window shopping sorang-sorang. Sekarang? I might rather stay at home than not having my husband accompanying me.

Let's say anything bad happen to our husband (touch wood), are we going to survive. It buys some time kan nak get used to it. As such,it's important girls to have whatever preparation needed. Having the driving licensed is essential. Yes,it's must be the top priority.

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The thing that I am doing best currently is sleeping.

I was on vacation last weekend. Everytime reached the homestay, I changed my clothes,doing necessarily and in a minute I get ready to sleep.

On our way to and from Kuala Terengganu, most of the time I just slept in the car.

During on one of the day off, my hubs and I went to play badminton at 9am. After an hour,we got back home and I slept for more than 3hours.

At the office,after Zuhur prayer, I would usually sleep for about 5-10 minutes.

Even in the car, I will always sleep. Going back to parent-in-law's house which took only 20mins pun I boleh lelap.

At certain point, me myself rasa badan lemah sebab terlebih tido, otak lembap takpayah nak cakap la and how I felt sayangnye wasting time macam tuh je. I try to control it now, I dont want it to be a habit.

So so so unproductive :(

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Salam dearie,

Haa,I bukan nak kasi resipi tau. sebab I pun tak pandai buat :) Haha. I've been craving this date pudding caramel from Bens KLCC. Omg~ Terasa kenikmatannya.

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Salam lovelies..

Waking up in the morning and it is raining was really a bliss. I dont know how to describe it but I somehow love the smell. Rasa sejuk. Rasa Allah tu dekat.

I dont know what really happened to me. But I can feel how the Konvensyen Bidadari Dunia did helped me to see life in different ways. To be positive. Always. I am still struggling to be a better muslim.

At the end of 2011,many people set their resolution. So am I. At first I thought of keeping it only to myself. But how my past experience told me to really speak out the goal and only then you dont forget about what you had set and strive for it. I dont know it is psychology or what but it helped. During my uni time, I will stick an A4 paper wrote "by hook or by crook,i must get a dean's list" at my study place. And starting from that moment, dean's list is in my hand. See,how this thing work. The power of being reminding all the time on what we had determine earlier.

Instead of having so many things to achieve like the yesteryears, I decided to focus on two major things only. Haha.

1) To become a better muslim.

2) To learn how to swim.

I know I should start to become a better muslim like long time ago. In fact,it is a never ending process. This time, I really hope that I istiqamah in what I'm doing. Thank Allah that I have a such a good friend, who never give up to invite me to usrah and majlis ilmu.Thanks Solha dearie.

I taknak change dratically without knowing what's the purpose of doing so. I takut I hangat-hangat tahi ayam je. So, masih banyak ilmu that I have to gain dan mesti istiqamah untuk join majlis ilmu. The last time i join majlis ilmu was during my secondary school. Biasalah, at boarding school semua majlis ilmu wajib join. Nak taknak kena dengar. Kalau tak wajib memang I yang tak sedar diuntung ne tak join. Bila zaman uni,zaman kerja memang banyak lagi alasan tercipta untuk elak ke majlis ilmu. To start it back this year memang perlu keazaman yang kuat. Moga I sentiasa ada dalam lindungan Allah. InshaAllah.

To achieve 2nd goal is really important for me.

Some people might think that to learn how to swim is not a major thing. But I am really keen to learn. It's frustating to realized that swimming is good for your health but I dont know how to be good at it. Seeing my sister-in-law berenang happily, and how they sometimes bother about the height of the pool made me feel such a loser. Because I usually end up berendam sahaja and most of the time jadi penunggu setia tepi pool bila kedalaman pool melepasi ketinggian I.

To keep myself motivated, I need a reward upfront. Haha. Like last time, I want to keep fit by sweating in and out. That's answering why I sign up for the gym membership and bought myself a sport shoes that cost me about RM400. Everytime I am lazy to go to the gym I akan teringat yang I have an expensive sport shoes and I need to wear it. Kalau tak rugi duet beli mahal-mahal. That's how things works on me.

So for this time,  I need to buy the swimsuit first then I should enroll the swimming class. Heh. :)

InshaAllah. Moga dipermudahkan segalanya. AMINN~

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I have so much things to share but I lost words to describe it. Hee~

Let me start with the attitude/manners that sometime we left it at home.

I am a regular passenger of Putra LRT for the past 3 years. Bermacam ragam manusia dapat dilihat. Ada yang kurang siuman, tiba-tiba datang mendekat and asked 'Hang ade berape?'.. Ikotkan hati I nak jawab 6 but I was too afraid at that time so I looked at the other side. Ignoring him,trying to avoid the eye contact.

Pernah kena raba dengan chinese guy dalam train and he's just plain rude. Bila I sound dia, dia slumber cakap'what?' sambil pandang I tak puas hati. Tak rasa bersalah lansung, muka tak malu.

Paling I menyampah,lelaki yang kita rasa cukup upaya sihat walafiat sebok berebut seat with the girls. Hello? Can u just being gentlemen?

And..I just can't tolerate with those yang tak prihatin. Apparently,old folks,kids, pregnant women standing in front of them but they just don't bother. I noticed that sometimes they did aware about the people who are more needed the seat but they just have a heart to look at them without feeling guilty. Iklan kat tv, even the sign in the train pun are clear enough. Haish, there's an incident happened last week. One pregnat woman yang tengah sarat, perut memang besar obvious, muka pucat sangat berdiri about 5minutes but then still no one offer her a seat. I tengok semua orang yang dapat seat noticed this pregnant lady tapi bole buat tak tahu. Yang sedihnya yang duduk semua perempuan yang muda belia. I just couldn't care less, I nampak at the other coach ada seat kosong so I bagitau that pregnant lady and she walked slowly sebab train tengah begerak. Semua yang dapat seat ne tengok ja. Memang tak fikir orang laen lansung. Oh please, I think they left their manners at home.

Sometimes,ada je bapak budak dukung baby sambil berdiri. Mana tangan nak pegang baby,mana tangan nak hold pemegang. Memang la tak patut kalau tengok saja.

There were few incidents that I mistaken recognizing whether it's a baby bump or the girl is actually buncit. For the safe side, just offer the seat to them. Some of them akan gelak-gelak cakap they don't need the seat and some of them akan said NO with the full expression on the face. I bet they must be cursing me. Haha.

I pernah jugak minta nak duduk sebab memang tak larat memang tak sihat. It takes about 35minutes to reach office/home and I don't want to just stand for that period. I NEED a seat.

There are so many stories to share about my experiences in the train. Yang kelakar, yang menyakitkan hati, yang buat I kadang-kadang I tak dapat lupa sampai sekarang and not to forget some sweet memories. Haha. 

Not all people being ignorance. I also met some new friends in the train. Siap jemput datang wedding dia lagi. Ada one girl ne sangat sweet. We both selalu berdiri at the same coach, i noticed dia mesti baca buku dalam train. After 3days je mesti berganti buku. Envy her, sebab semangat membaca dia berkobar-kobar? I dengan dia akan turun sama-sama at KLCC. Until one day, I work at the new place so I no longer turun kat KLCC and I naek train lebih awal and didn't see her anymore. There's one time I dropped by at KLCC to pay celcom bills and I met her there. We just exchange smile sepanjang dalam train selama ne and suddenly bila jumpa balik she said to me 'it's been a while,u are no longer taking lrt isn't it?' and we talked like we have known each other for years. We've been friends ever since that. Haha. I memang kadang-kadang muka tak malu, peramah tak tentu tempat.

I think this post is too long already. I don't think this post typed by a person who claim earlier that she just lost words to describe. Haha :)

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