"Ya Allah, Kau sayangi/kasihi kedua ibu bapa dan kedua ibu bapa mertuaku ku seperti mana mereka menyayangi/mengasihi aku dan suami ketika kami masih dalam kandungan sehinggalah sekarang".
Bila pregnant ne and I guess bila dah beranak-pinak nanti surely kita akan lagi rasa pengorbanan parents kita. Lebih menghargai jerih susah payah sebagai parents.
I am at 31 weeks of pregnancy and what I feel each day is the deepest love of my parents. Ya Allah, the backaches are killing me. Sakit sampai ke tulang pinggul. Last tuesday, I can't even walk without help. My colleagues suggested me to lie down and it became even worse when I can't turn to the right and left. I was giving up and wanted to meet the doctor straight away. And Ya Allah, I tak boleh bangun by myself. People can hear me screaming sebab sakit ya rabbi.
When I met the doctors (yep, I went to several doctors), all of them said the same thing. Jangan urut, jangan sapu minyak and just bear with it until deliver. You can do nothing much. I imagined, I must made my mum backaches too when she's carrying me inside 26-years ago. Sobs. Im sorry, Mak. :(
Besides backaches, I have nothing much obstacles to endure. It just that I am easily fall asleep. During weekdays, kadang-kadang tengok Adam & Hawa pun mata dah berkelip. Memang letih. Weekend pun around 11pm dah tertido. Kat ofis, before solat zohor I mesti take a nap 15-20minutes. Kalau weekend kat rumah memang I tido lama la time siang. And yet malam still cepat mengantuk.
Husband did the housechores the most. I boleh masuk baju dalam washing machine je, bila dah siap nak angkut baldi pergi sidai pun I tak larat. Sakit sampai ke tulang pinggul. Nak menyidai baju pun tak larat nak bangun tunduk. Lipat baju dan iron je I masih larat. Tu pun iron baju kena stop in the middle to catch up a breath. Parah.
Husband got class today and I have no idea he wake up at what time. Sebab I bangun je tengok baju semalam dah siap kutip and dah siap basuh and sidai baju pagi tadi. Omg, thanks Allah for sending a perfect husband. He never did laundry at all in his life, he never did the housechores at all (my PIL got maid at their home), so I am so touched and thankful he did all this troubles for me and the baby. Masa mula-mula kawen, memang my hubs taktau banyak benda. How to operate the washing machine pun taktau. And masa masuk rumah, we bought lots of stuff from IKEA and IKEA semua furniture kena self-assembles, memang hard time for him. But now, he has no problem dah nak assembles bagai. After a year marriage, he changed a lot. Thanks husband dearie. I am proud of you. Masa we ols belom scan gender baby, hubs said few times like, 'I bet u must be carrying a girl'. And when I asked him the big WHY? He said because dia tetiba rajin. I pelik, kenapa I pulak yang jadi malas? Haha. Terbalik daaa.
This pregnancy really teach me a lot. I am not whining, I am just glad Allah choose me to endure/face all these things, so that I learn to appreciate my parents more and to be grateful having my beloved IZ as my husband.
Dear baby, you must have no idea how your parents really love u. You are not even born yet, but we love you to bits and prepare only the best thing to you. It's funnt btw, your movement/kicking made us grinning ear-to-ear and it happened each time we saw/felt your movement. Love u dear baby. Please be a good daughter okayh :)