Hai girls!! How are you doing at the end of Ramadhan?
For me, Im going to miss this Ramadhan. Because, i started seeing the month of Ramadhan in different ways.
It's not about food. It's not about restrain myself from hunger and thirsty. It's more than that.
Alhamdulillah..I fully utilized my time in a good way. Even sedikit penat macam tak cukup rehat.
Tapi nikmat dan kepuasan tak ternilai. That's answering why I rarely updated this blog of mine.
During weekends, I was busy helping my FPIL at their Kedai. Maklum lah, kedai baju melayu, time nak raya memang sesak. I have to curi-curi masa, iron baju for work, spring cleaning and the other kerja rumah. Agak penat tapi I suka. It made me realized betapa susah nak cari rezeki. Of course, bila penat ja I straight away thinking how parents bersusah-payah besarkan I and my brother dengan hanya meniaga kecil-kecilan di Pendang.
Due to tight budget, I dont have new shoes, handbags, make-up, accessories like others. I juga takde budget nak ikot my colleagues for manicure, pedicure and massage. Deep down sape taknak kan? But seriously I cant afford any of it. My baju raya? I only bought 1 material during my visit to Bandung. The other two was given by FMIL. Satu belum sempat tempah, the rest InshaALLAH siap a day before Raya. I don't have gala meriah Raya this year. I dont even have new tudung. I'll use the sedia ada tudung sahaja.
I'm not looking forward untuk bergaya chantek di hari Raya. I just want to be home safely, having my favourites Raya dishes. And I think I had reach a stage whereby I really looking forward untuk ziarah-menziarah, bermaafan, terima kunjungan tetamu. Sound like orang tua kan? :p
The most important thing, I want to be around my family. Called me sentimental, but yeah I rasa laen macam sikit, as this year might be the last year I Raya as a single person. Bukan dah kawen maksudnya tak bole nak spend time dengan family, tapi sedikit sebanyak laen tuh tetap ada kan? Or it just my feelings?
Sebelum I melalut makin panjang, let's stop it here.
Just so you know, Im going back to my hometimes, few minutes from now. Pray that I have a safe journey home. I should take a nap for a while so better I stop babling.
Before that. just wanna wish you SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN. Maaf jika ada terkasar bahasa, secara sengaja mahupun tidak sengaja jika I ada menyentuh perasaan mana-mana pihak. Sesungguhnya yang baik datangnya dari Allah, yang buruk datang dari kelemahan diri saya sendiri.
Hope you girls have a safe journey back home too and have a blessed Raya ahead. Take care and jangan main mercun. :)