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Am currently missing my husband.  Haha (okay,it's so weird after claimed that I miss him pastu gelak berdekah HAHA). I am not really good expressing my feelings publicly.

Since getting married, we both tak pernah berpisah. I mean the longest pun time working hours. So, bila my hubs cakap nak pergi mencadat sotong kat terengganu, i was like okay,sure,no problem. Butt,bila dah dekat tarikh nak pergi which is pagi tadi i memang dah gelabah,risau. I'm afraid that I'm not going to survive.

Yeah,no matter how independent I am all this while (before married) bila somehow lepas kawen I have my hubs all the time terus rasa berdikari tu hilang. Sungguh. Dulu masa kt rumah sewa di flat yang kawasan banyak kes curi, foreigner ramai bukan main, i berani tido sorang berhari-hari bila housemate i balik kampung. But now, dekat umah yang sistem security bole diharapkan i memang tak berani stay sorang-sorang.

I was so clumsy today. I dont know, jadi tak keruan bila my hubs jauh dimata. I have to fry the ikan bilis twice sebab hangit. The first time was because I was on the phone with my hubs pastu letak telefon terus terlupa ikan bilis and terus pergi cuci toilet. Sekali tengok rumah berasap kelam kabut ikan bilis dah hitam legam. Then, goreng lagi sekali sambil basuh periuk. Tiba-tiba hilang ingatan,basuh periuk tak habis,paip air tak tutup terus pergi susun tupperware dalam almari. Terbau hangit, cepat-cepat selamatkan ikan bilis. Agak hangit sedikit,tapi redha sebab dah malas nak goreng semula.

I met one of my bestfriend around 4pm today and she had to leave early. So, memikirkan yang takut tak sempat maghrib, i decided solat terus kt KL Festival City. Bila bejalan sorang-sorang tu, oh yeah 'i miss him' feeling tu macam menusuk sangat.  :(

Then, sampai kat parking keta,baru i realized yang i tak locked the car. Boleh? Again, kelam kabut check kot2 ada benda missing. Haish, pastu boleh pulak wrong way. I dont know what I have in mind.

Dah drive dalam 15mins, i noticed few cars angkat lampu tinggi kat I? I was like,????. Rupanya tak bukak lampu kereta. Duhhhhhh

I decided to overnight at my Parents-In-Law,sebab surely i tak berani tido sorang. So, now while typing this, i am hardly sleep and berdoa i akan cepat lelap so esok cepat datang. Hew.

Husband i pergi 2hari semalam je tapi i gelisah sungguh. Bila baca few blogs yang the couple staying apart and only met once a week, i rasa ape la sangat kes i ne kan?

It made me realized how dependant am i to my hubs. How marriage life has changed me to and how I lose my sifat berdikari. Sebab dulu I just dont have problem nak duduk makan kat kedai sorang-sorang. Nak keluar window shopping sorang-sorang. Sekarang? I might rather stay at home than not having my husband accompanying me.

Let's say anything bad happen to our husband (touch wood), are we going to survive. It buys some time kan nak get used to it. As such,it's important girls to have whatever preparation needed. Having the driving licensed is essential. Yes,it's must be the top priority.

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