Food Craving

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We went back to kampung hubs at Pokok Mangga, Malacca. I memang dah sarat tak larat nak travel jauh pun, tapi demi food cravings punya pasal, sanggup ku gagahi. Haha

Balik Melaka mesti pergi Klebang Coconut Shake. So, the first 3 cravings fully satisfied.
- Nasi Lemak
- Coconut Shake Special
- Air tebu ori (no sugar added)

Cumanya putu piring 80sen kat Limbongan je tak tercapai. Tutup la pulok. Menci betul la orang yang meniaga tak consistent. Rasanya sejak berkali pergi, baru 4-5x dapat makan, yang laen pergi mesti kedai tutup. Emo I dengan tokey kedai. Sebaek sedap sebab tu selalu tak putus asa tiap kali balik tiap kali tu pergi cari putu piring Limbongan.

Sis-in-laws nak ajak maen boling, tapi nak hadap jem masuk town memang tak la. Cuti sekolah ne Melaka luar biasa jem dia. Tak sanggup nak redah. So, pergi Jusco je tengok Hantu Kak Limah II. Biasalah, bila Hantu Kak Limah I best, yang part II mesti la ada high expectation kan? Unfortunately, the movie doesn't even meet half of my expectation. Banyak yang kurang, especially ada unsur ala-ala robot, high tech sangat, macam tak kena dengan the whole story yang berlatarbelakangkan kampung habes. Macam buang masa je pergi tengok. Hee. **btw, this is my personal opinion tau :)

For dinner pulak, we had a great Ikan Bakar at Umbai. Kalau ikot family I, we preferred makan kat Alai @ Crystal Bay. Tapi family-in-laws suka makan kat Umbai. Before bertolak, MIL dah kol siap-siap order food. Bila sampai ktorang makan aje. Takpayah tunggu-tunggu lagik. Ikot hati I nak makan 2 bungkus nasi lemak, tapi risau baby dalam perut makin membesar, I makan sebungkus ja. Redha. I makan buttered prawn with garlic, ikan bakar and sotong goreng tepung. I tak makan sotong pun all this while, tapi semalam try macam sedap pulok. Haha.

Pendek kata memang puas hati makan semalam. Lepas dinner terus gerak balik KL. Dalam kete asyik tido je la I. Kenyang sangat. Haha. Then, around 3.30am terjaga sebab sakit perut memulas. Habes sume makanan kat Melaka. Seksa jugak. I noticed since pregnant, kalau I makan seafood beriya mesti sakit perut memulas. Perut I tak tahan kot. Hee :)

Alhamdulillah..masih diberi nikmat makan. Pasne pantang, kena tahan-tahan la sikit. Sabar. Sabar. Hee :)

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Set Tilam Kekabu Baby

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Finally, after survey sana-sini akhirnya berjaya buat keputusan untuk beli set tilam baby kat Little DJE. Puas hati. Ingatkan nak beli online, tapi memikirkan cuti CNY yang panjang dan takut tak sempat bersalin dan jugak abang pos laju yang dok mengomel asyik-asyik barang I aje, so tadi memang walk in je pergi beli kat sana.

Ingat nak amek corak laen tapi hubs pilih yang ne, kita redha je la. Hubs yang bayar lagikpun kan? Hee. Material sarung tilam dan bantal okay, tebal tilam pun okay. Jahitan kemas. Memang puas hati la. Hee :)

Alhamdulillah tak susah cari kedai dia. Pagi tadi pergi checkup, pastu attend wedding dan terus gerak ke TTDI Jaya. Ya Allah, terik betul hari ne. Panas je I dalam kete. Plan nak balik Melaka petang pun kena postpon malam nanti. Mula la I bising-bising suh hubs tinted kete tebal sikit. Hee.

Tadi checkup okay. Baby masih mengiring ke kanan. Bermakna I takkan bersalin in a week time. Sempat jumpa doc lagik for the next checkup. Baby pun akan membesar lagik tu doc cakap. Aduhai, risau I dengar. Approximately skang berat baby dalam 3.2-3.4kg. Huhuhu. Sihat walafiat. Alhamdulillah. Menanti dengan sabar je la skang. Tadi bila tanya doc kalau nak balik Melaka okay tak. Doc cakap Melaka, Slim River & Bentong okay. Sebab sempat 2jam perjalanan nak sampai KL balik. Tapi jangan lupa bawak buku pink tu je la. Hee.

And tadi doc bagi 4pcs washable breast pad. I tak beli-beli lagik breastpad, so might use this one first before beli yang disposable. I dah tak larat nak.menapak jalan ke shopping mall. Hohoho

Tonight balik Melaka. Harap kete dah surut kat jalan. Tak larat owh dalam kete lama-lama. I target nak makan;

1. Seafood (asam pedas ikan, udang tepung dan ikan siakap 3 rasa)
2. Putu Piring 80sen
3. Klebang Coconut Shake & Nasi Lemak bungkus
4. Air Tebu Klebang

Haha. Harap-harap tercapai. Pasne kena pantang lama owh ;l

Have a great holiday girls.

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Minggu yang Memenatkan Jiwa dan Raga

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I dah masuk 38weeks. Masih belom bersalin dan I rasa macam lambat lagik ja. Hari-hari pergi ofis jumpa macam-macam orang,  macam-macam ramalan yang I dengar. Perut dah turun la. Bersalin lagik 2,3 hari la. Kaki bengkak sangat la. Serious, kadang-kadang tak larat nak dengar mitos yang belum tentu betul. Pasrah je I, I masih boleh menunggu dengan sabar.

Important work at the office already settled. Lega. Setelah berhempas pulas the whole week. Sampai ofis around 7.50am terus buat kerja sambil breakfast. Buat keje fokus sampai lunch time. I memang kurangkan borak, pasang earphone so I bole distract from gangguan sekeliling. Kadang-kadang I cabut wayar phone, tak larat nak entertain macam-macam query. After lunch I akan tido half an hour, solat zohor then sambung buat keje dalam dunia sendiri. Around 6pm, solat asar and waiting for husband nak balik sekali. Sampai rumah malam memang flat. Rutin seminggu ne memang memenatkan. This whole week tiap kali PIL ajak dinner kat luar, tiap kali tu I reject. So, hubs pergi la sorang-sorang pastu balik tapau makanan kat I. I skang ne heartburn sangat-sangat kalau makan malam, selalunya I jamah 2,3 suap ja. Kalau makan banyak, malam nanti tak dapat tido pulak.

Hari ne I dah siap buat wasiat. Kat mana file penting, keje ape yang masih pending, access to my email, etc. Sebab knowing my boss, dia tak pernah amek tau sume tu. So,  I taknak dia kol I time maternity leave tanya itu ini. Please la, dont disturb me. I dah remind everyone, don't call me if it is work related thingy. I dah sacrifice a lot kot since January, so please respect me. Only Allah knows how I suffer back pain, waist ache and toilet trip like 20times during office hours. Especially after solat zohor, mesti dah flat. I still attend meeting, kadang-kadang back to back meeting. Mengah oii. I dah sarat sangat kot and yet my boss still forward keje banyak kat I. Everyday my boss cakap jangan la bersalin lagik. Whattheheck la kan? Selfish gila. Yet still taknak amek tau pasal kerja I. And....the worst thing is during my 3-months maternity leave, memang takde replacement. Bole? My boss baru apply for temporary staff. Bila masa I nak teach that temp staff? Gilaa. I memang sarkastik abes dah since semalam, I keep on cakap, balik maternity leave nanti kalau keje yang menanti I berlambak memang I tender terus. Kalau I kaya memang I dah tender 24-hours notice. Bullshit giler. He has the whole last year to find a colleague for our team but he just take things for granted dan ingat I boleh buat semua benda sorang. Tak reti appreciate pulak tu.

Okay.termeroyan pasal ofis pulak kat sini. Seriously I memang stress benda ne. The other colleagues sume suggest, amek mc sementara nak tunggu bersalin. Sebab tengok I petang-petang flat abes. Dengan tak selesanya. I selalu buka bra bila petang pastu lilit shawl nak cover. Serious sakit gila.
I dah tak peduli dah, walau tempat I memang dah macam selat melaka. Tempat laluan orang ramai. Who cares kan? As long as I selesa.

Pastu tiap kali I express how I cant tolerate with my boss, people keep on saying, 'sabar', 'sabar', 'ignore je dia'. Oh hello? I've been working like hell for the past 1-year kot, sabar I pun dah sampai limit. Pastu mesti cakap, 'nanti mesti anak you muka macam dia'.

Okayh. Seriously, annoying gilaa.

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Welcome February

**with my SILs. Look at my 'bloated' tummy. :p

Salam ladies :)

Hi...I ols cuti hari wilayah hari ne. Lambai-lambai kat you ols yang kena keja hari ne. :p
It's February. Yeay, excited!!! Welcome my little angel, Ummi & Ayah just cannot wait for you. February, please be good to me.

Sorry if ada yang annoying I asyik cakap pasal baby je. I am in the mood for delivery sangat-sangat dah ne. My mind pun occupied with this thing aje, so memang tak boleh nak tolong la. Haha.

Alhamdulillah semua dah siap laundry. Hari tu masa lipat baju tengok-tengok macam sikit ja baju. Weekend lepas I pergi stock up lagik. Haha. I belom pack hospital bag, Inshaallah hari ne. Hari ne. Hihihi.

My hubs and I were supposed to attend antenatal class at PPUM last Saturday. Tapi boleh pulak terlupa and we went to Tapah instead. Haha. Redha and pasrah je. Memang kena belaja sendiri sebab dah tak sempat nak book and pergi antenatal class laen.

Masa pergi Tapah last week memang membuktikan yang I tak dapat berlama dalam kete. Tupun dah lapik bantal bagai, still sakit belakang especially sebelah kanan. Kalau I balik keje drive sorang pun, yang amek masa paling lama sejam pun I dah tak tahan ngilu rasa belakang ne. Toilet trip takyah cakap la, memang kadang-kadang rasa cam nyusahkan orang. Last sunday, hubs takde and I ikot my MIL & SILs tengok Juvana kat KLCC. Cite tu sejam setengah je, tapi I pergi toilet few times dan memang sakit belakang. Dah pencen tengok wayang, tak sesuai ngan keadaan dah sekarang. Sepanjang kat KLCC berkali-kali kot I pergi toilet. Weekend ramai orang kan, toilet pun beratur panjang, so I memang mintak kat akak cleaner tu yang I nak masuk toilet OKU. Terpaksa. Kencing kadang-kadang tu setitik je, tapi bab nak tahan tu hazab macam kantung dah penuh ja. Rasanya rambut baby dok menyucuk-nyucuk kat pundi kencing dah kot.

Perut I tetiba besar oii. Serious. Asal boleh besar tetiba? Baby is growing and growing kot. Jangan besar sangat baby. Then, kaki I dah membengkak, kalau buat exercise.mencangkung memang terasa kaki berlipat. Kalau jalan tu memang mengah senantiasa, dengan perut membesar bagai dipam-pam kadang I tak dapat rasa kaki kanan I. Semalam bila lepak kat Uptown Danau Kota makan kepok lekor and takoyaki, I terpaksa potong cerita hubs I sebab I dah tak larat duduk. Baru few minutes duduk dah sakit belakang. Kalau kerusi takde sandar belakang memang I tak boleh berlama-lama. Nak terus jalan-jalan round uptown pun tak larat. Sorry hubs I dah jadi orang yang membosankan. :p

Semakin dekat hari nak bersalin, semakin both of us try to do things yang nanti bila ada baby kecik susah nak buat. Sebab tu dah few times malam-malam wandering kat Uptown. Padahal before kawen, even after kawen for a year pun kitorang tak pernah lepak-lepak kat Uptown tu walau Uptown hanya 10minutes from our house. During weekend kadang-kadang I terjaga tengok hubs tak bangun lagik, I terus sambung tido. Nanti tak dapat bangun lambat lagik. Haha. Hubs pun kalau dia bangun dulu, pun tak kejut I. Dia biar je I tido, bila bangun tengok breakfast suma dah siap. Hubs pergi beli breakfast kat luar la maksudnya. I am at my lowest level of laziness right now. Haha. Kasik can la, nanti I will have sleepless nights and rest kan? Heee :)

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Berpantang

Salam :)

Owh..

37th Weeks Checkup Update : Baby dah masuk laluan. That's answering why I selalu sakit kat bahagian ari-ari. And having mild contraction. Even baby dah masuk laluan, kepala dah ke bawah tapi baby mengiring kiri kanan, so doc cakap bersalin not any sooner. 2 more weeks perhaps. Sebab I dok cakap banyak kali kat doc yang I rasa macam dah nak bersalin anytime. Haha. Sekarang dah start weekly checkup. Last friday checkup, masa buat 4d nampak baby dok sucking ibu jari kaki. Amboiihh baby oii :) Alhamdulillah semua okay. Air ketuban okay, baby okay dan berat baby pun mengancam 3.1kg. Haha. Every week baby boleh naek lagik 300gm, cuba bayangkan kalau lagik 4minggu berat baby I berapa? I takut tak larat nak push aje. I pun noticed I makan banyak lately, perut pun dah membesar gila. Hadoii, baby jangan besar sangat, nanti sian Ummi nak push baby. Hee :)

Okay... Berbalik kepada berpantang, I have decided to berpantang ikot kemampuan I. At first I know nothing about which set bersalin yang okay/x okay. Yang I tau banyak mommy bloggers yang I follow pakai tanamera. I macam nanti aku bersalin pun nak pakai tanamera. Tapi bila balik kampung jumpa my cousin yang baru lepas bersalin anak kedua, transform jadi kurus, slim and slender macam anak dara, I terus rasa nak pakai  set jamu mak dara macam cousin I. Kak ipar I pun terus beli Jamu Mak Dara. I baca review tanya pendapat orang, last-last I rasa yang I tak akan makan jamu bagai tu.

And finally, I dah set my mind yang I akan berpantang dengan:

1. Set Berpantang Shaklee (Vita C 500gm, B Complex, Vitalea Iron, Zinc & Ostematrix)

2. Felinna Inchloss - my mom told me param sangat panas, even sapu kapur + limau nipis pun panas. I ingat nak pakai pati halia je until I met uni-mate masa shopping kat sogo. Dia beriya recommend Felinna Inchloss sebab memang sangat-sangat worked for her.

3. Premium Beautiful (PB) - I tau I bukan jenis manusia gigih dan sabar nak melilit bengkung. I memang dah ada PB bought before kawen, so why not pakai yang mana ada je. Bila google rupanya ramai yang berpantang dengan PB. So, lagik teruja.

4. Herba Mandian Aura - since I didnt buy any set bersalin, so I bought loose product from here and there. Herba mandian ne I bought yang dalam packet A4 size, rebus je before pakai untuk mandi. Lagikpun, mak bidan yang nak urut I nanti cakap hasil tanaman sendiri
pokok-pokok herba dia untuk mandian ne dah xde sebab dah dibersihkan oleh pihak rapid untuk menaiktaraf parking di LRT ampang. Sape suh makcik tanam kat tempat public gitu oii.

5. NR Phytonatal - I heard from lots of people yang pil ne bagus. Bg senang lawas dan jugak menggalakkan pembuangan lendir/lemak dsb. Pendek kata, boleh cepat kurus, sesuai untuk ibu menyusu sebab it works as milk booster too.

6. Leesa Formula Ginger Cream - work as pilis too. Boleh sapu gilir-gilir dengan Felinna Inchloss kat perut, punggung dan peha. Boleh sapu kat tapak kaki before pakai stokin.

7. Bedak Sejuk - ne I suh my mom bawak from kampung. Konon untuk tanggalkan sel-sel kulit mati dan hitam-hitam di seluruh badan.

8. Lulur / scrub / soap - yet to be decided. Orang cakap bagus lulur/scrub badan before mandi. Tapi taktau nak beli brand apa yang okay. I reaf Brown Soap Tanamera pun bagus. Ntahlah..

Yang tu je kot persediaan berpantang I. If ada ape-ape I tertinggal, inform tau. Harap sangat dapat back in shape during confinement period. Have to shred so many kgs. Even beli loose cmne macam lagik costly dari beli the whole set..tapi dari I beli tak pakai, baek camne je kan? Hee. Hope it gonna work on me. Heee :)

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CheckUp at Klinik Kesihatan

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Finally, I berjaya basuh baju baby. Ingatkan dah banyak baju yang I beli, rupanya tak banyak mana pun. Dalam 20 pasang ja, tupun majoriti untuk 3months and above. Untuk newborn ada la dalam 4-5 pasang. Memang kena stock up lagik. Bila basuh baru realized yang banyak lampin, receiving blanket, wash clothes dll. Paling leceh part melipat. Haha.

Tapi alhamdulillah dah setel laundry nye part, dah siap lipat. Tinggal nak beli wardrobe baru je. Amboih, barang baby semua baru eh. So, cuti khames ne boleh start packing hospital bag. Lega..

Barang-barang berpantang untuk Ummi baby lansung ape pun tak beli lagik. Boleh? Aduhaiii. Kena setel cepat-cepat ne.

Laundry baju baby : CHECKED

Back to the topic....

Emm... I pernah few times checkup at Klinik Kesihatan (KK). This story happened in Nov 2012. Lama giler baru nak cite. Mula-mula memang for the sake of nak bukak buku ja. Then, bila dia suh datang menom air gula sampai berlanjutan 5-6 checkup sebab I detected with Anemia. My lowest reading of Hemoglobin (Hb) was 9.0. The nurse insisted me to perform IBC test (Iron Binding Capacity). IBC is some kind of test to detect whether I got talasemia. U know when u got talasemia, that's why it disturb the absorption of Iron into the blood. Nampak tak kaitan dia, bila ada talasemia, body/blood susah nak.absorb iron and will lead to low Hb. My Hb reading bye history never reached 11.0, then makin turun sampai la ke 9.0. The normal Hb reading for pregnant women is 12.4.
The negative impact of low Hb, baby mungkin tak survive dalam perut (sebab Hb rendah=darah cair, so darah nak pam oksigen ke baby tak cukup) dan boleh membawa kematian pada si ibu during delivery process. And chances nak bersalin premature and czer memang tinggi. When I know it will harm the baby, I gigih la paksa diri telan kerang, paru, daging, bayam, jambu batu bagai.

I didn't continue to checkup at KK sebab dorang memang akan suka suki cakap datang esok boleh tak. Hari ne busy nak buat audit. Padahal dah call few times untuk confirm appoinment sehari sebelum. Then masa amek test darah I for MGTT (yang menom air gula tu), tak ingat pun nak buat IBC test kat I siap-siap. Time tu begelen kot darah I dorang amek. Then, bila datang untuk follow up MGTT result, dorang cakap datang next week tuesday boleh tak untuk IBC, hari tu terlupa nak buat. Sebab I pikir penting betul IBC ne, I cuti lagik halfday untuk buat test. Bila I sampai early morning at 8am, tunggu sampai 9.30am bole dorang cakap, 'sorry kak, test IBC esok la'. Damn. And it was the last time I jejak kaki ke KK. Berhabes cuti semata nak kena ikot schedule dorang aje.

Bila I pergi monthly checkup kat Pusrawi, I told my gynae about the IBC test. He then requested me to check Hb first before proceed with IBC test. Suprisingly my Hb was increased to 10.4 from 9.0. I don't know because of the sudden intake of kerang/paru/daging a week before or what. My gynae then asked me, masa kat KK dorang amek darah kat fingertips ke? YES it is. My gynae said for accurate reading, darah kena amek kat bawah celah lipatan tangan. I tend to believe my gynae. Sebab the next checkup pun my Hb naek sikit la dari 10.4 tu.

I memang dah berpatah hati berkerat rotan dengan checkup kat KK yang sesuka hati ikot time dia. Being me, memang I didnt bother to give them a call pun cakap I proceed with checkup at Pusrawi.

These few days, I keep on receiving a phone call from the same number. I memang jenis manusia yang tak angkat fon from nombor tak kenal. Sampai la they call my husband and said they are from KK and couldn't reach me. That's why they've been calling my husband. The efforts touched me. Baru je my hubs update me about the phone call, barula I angkat fon bila that number ring again. The nurse talked nicely. They were worried, sebab I senyap since November. I kan diklasifikasikan sebagai tag kuning (read:kehamilan bermasalah) due to anemia. So, dorang memang monitor closely each cases. They ols memang every month tried to call me. I felt guilty, I should give them a call. Despite of ikot timing dorang sesuka hati, dorang memang layan I baek and the checkup kat KK memang jaga kesihatan ibu yang lebih. Kalau kat swasta, more to the baby. And the nurse being so nice asking me to update them once delivered so that they can visit the baby and I. I thought they dont visit those yang datang checkup 4-5x je. Heee. So thoughtful of them. My mom slalu cakap I always think about myself. Tak pernah nak kesah kat orang sekeliling yang tak affect my life sangat pun. Im living in denial with my mom's words. Truth hurts. :(

I learnt a BIG lesson today. Im glad I realized it few days before I become a mother to my own daughter. I aint younger anymore, thus I should have not take things/people for granted, though they didn't affect my life so much. In a way, they actually contribute a little portion of shares into who I am today. :(

Thanks mak. Thanks the nurses at KK Gombak.

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35th Weeks Updates

Salam :)

Lama betul I tak update blog. I suddenly got the writer's block. Haha. Must be due to my mind is occupied with lots of things, especially when I am already at 35th weeks. Cuak oii cuak.

TANDA-TANDA BERSALIN
I dah start rasa sakit ari-ari like a period pain. Sakit dan tak selesa. But still bearable. Sakit belakang makin menjadi-jadi. I susah nak tido malam dengan selesa. Pusing kanan pusing kiri. Bila dah dapat comfortable position, nak terkencing lah pulok. Pusat I pun dah terjojol sikit. Kalau pakai baju kaen nipis memang boleh nampak. Hee. I can't fit to any pyjamas pants. Gilaa. Besides that, I asyik sleepy ja. Kat ofis tido 15minutes during lunch time pun will do. Luckily Adam & Hawa dah abes, so malam-malam memang I tido awal.

HUSBAND
Hubs being so sweet, like always. Before this, I drive alone to the office. Now, I have him to accompany me. And from my office, he take LRT to his office. Time balik pun camtu. Dia akan take LRT to Bangsar and balik together. Sian die penat. Love him to bits. Sometimes he went back from the office quite late, so I akan balik dulu. Merasa la sampai rumah before 7pm dan dapat tengok cite Hingga Hujung Nyawa. Haha.

PERINEAL MASSAGE
I had started doing perineal massage like few weeks ago. I gigih buat hari-hari, tapi I xde la buat dalam-dalam macam the utube video. I baru tau yang my EMAB Stretch Oil ne bole guna utk perineal massage. So, I tak jadi la beli Tanamera VCO. Betul la cakap orang, dah buat selalu takpayah pakai cermin dah.

PREPARATION
I have lots of things to buy. Especially barang-barang for my confinement. Hishh, hari-hari I risau takut bersalin tak sempat beli semua barang dan tak sempat laundry baju baby dan kemas rumah. Risau. I still tak pack my hospital bag. Aduhaiiii, malas. I nak bersalin lepas CNY bole? Bagi dah lepas sume public holiday yang banyak tu. Haha. Boleh pilih-pilih pulok kan?

BIRTH PLAN
I still didn't make up my mind. Basically sebab I don't really have all the knowledge yet. I tau I memang nak opt for normal delivery, tapi tak pasti whether I nak amek epidural ke tak. Serious, I have to really gather all the information needed. Like seriously. I did watched the delivery video, both normal and c-sect. It's scary though. Tarik nafas, whatever pun I need to face it. I boleh tahan sakit. Ya Allah, please ease my labor process. Inshaallah everything will be okay.

PANTANG
Inshaallah, my mom will come to KL and take care of me. Love u mak. Hee. I kan suka gila makan laksa and haritu my mom said nanti kena pantang makan laksa setahun. Sobs. Terkezut I. Pantang ice I boleh lagik. Pantang laksa? OMG. Now memang I dok pulun makan laksa bagi puas. Sekarang kalau I terlintas nak makan ape mesti terus pi cari, sebab I dok pk nanti kena pantang. Haha.

STRESS AT THE OFFICE
Not because of works, sebab I amek pendekatan I buat keje selagi termampu dan selagi sempat. Malas nak committed sangat, at the end boss tak appreciate pun. So, I took things easily. And I became more relax. But I stress with politic at the office. Bila ramai perempuan dalam one department ne, banyak sangat gosip dan drama. Serious bosan. Biasalah sekarang musim baru abes appraisal and nak dapat bonus, semua orang confident dia layak Exceed Target (ET) = more bonus & increment. So, bila nama orang laen yang naek, biasalah banyak bunyi kat belakang. I pun tak puas hati, I pun deserved dapat ET tapi bila dah boss calon nama orang laen I redha. Bukan I tak kesah, bukan I biar orang buat sesuka hati kat I, it just that, I buat kerja bukan nak dapat pengharapan manusia, I buat kerja cari redha Allah (influenced by Dr. Muhaya). I percaya bukan boss I yang tentukan rezeki I. Allah yang tentukan. Even I tak dapat extra bonus and increment, I percaya Allah bagi I rezeki dalam bentuk laen. I alhamdulillah, even tengah sarat still bole jaga suami, kemas rumas. Our little angel pun dah nak keluar. I have great family and family in laws. So, please percaya ada rezeki dalam bentuk laen. I memang tak paham why certain colleagues still beriya nak ET tu. Pastu hari-hari ulang cakap benda yang sama as if dia sorang je layak. I am sick of it. Sometimes during lunch time I avoid lunch together sebab malas nak dengar the same issue over and over again. Bosan. Sebab tu kadang-kadang bangun pagi rasa malas nak pergi ofis, dok harap cepat bersalin sebab takmo go through the drama. Haish, tu bila I cakap kat kakak ofis sebelah I yang I sakit ari-ari, dia akan cakap kalau stress lagik sakit. So, kena relax. Aduhaiiii...rasa nak cari keje laen sebab next year time appraisal and bonus mesti drama yang sama berulang. Sobs. Redah dan tahan je la sementara nak beranak ne.

INSTAGRAM
I am now dah start active maen insta. Dah create acc lama cuma rasa comfortable dengan FB lagik. So, insta I terbiar je. Bila sekarang I noticed FB dah tak berapa secured/privacy, so I start active maen insta. Bengang kot bila si kepochi dok cakap dia tau I mintak pm price barang-barang kat FB. Haishhh. Rimas. So, kalau sape-sape ada insta, add la I -> BAIZURANATASHA.

Ha...banyak betul updatenye kan. Hee. That's all I guess. For the sake of not forgetting kan, memang kena buat note on every single thing.

Even now I am feeling all excited to see my little angel, but still I rasa nak die dalam perut lama. I am going to miss this moment.

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Perineal Massage

Salam :)

I found out this video is very useful. It's the right time for me to start with the Perineal Massage. The recommendation is for 34weeks and above. Perineal massage help to prepare our perineum area for labor, minimize the tearing and help to stretch the perineum area during the labor. It is very popular among the matsalleh, maybe kat Malaysia kurang awareness on this massage.

I plan to massage with Tanamera VCO Oil. I don't know whether I can massage it by myself or need help from the husband. Recommended for 5minutes massage, 3-4 times a week.
People said the first time quite sakit. After a while, it's gonna be okay. Eh? Whatever is, even I feel a little bit disturbing to do this kind of massage, I will force myself jugak. Inshaallah, this is my effort towards normal delivery. Just in case, later I need to perform c-sect jugak, atleast I tak ralat sebab dah try my best.

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#33 Weeks and Counting

Salam :)

I am at 33-weeks now. I should start packing up hospital bag and standby it in the car right now, isn't it? Ya Allah, time flew so fast. Dah nak masuk detik-detik akhir dah ne. Cuak. Seriously tiba-tiba rasa tak ready.

I've been thinking too much lately. Conflict kelahiran anak sulung perhaps. In certain time, I just can't wait the little angel to come out. And most of the time, I've been reacting insecurity. I will not have the same quality time together with my husband. I pity my husband that my attention will shift a bit (yeke a bit?) to the baby. I am worried if I can't adapt and take care of my husband like the whole 1st year of marriage. After this, everything will be about the little angel, no? I believed everyone having this syndrome too. Kan?? I know what I felt is wrong. I should have not ever think like that. Dear baby, Ummi loves you. Don't get me wrong.

So, I've been acting weird lately. Semua benda I risau like it was the last time for husband-wifey thingy. Macam, let's go the vacation BERDUA. No one else can tag along. Because after this, we are no more TWO. It will be THREE and it kind of freaking me out. Jom tengok wayang last before deliver. After this, we both may have to wait maybe about a year before we can have movie date together. My hubs jenis suka tengok movie, but lately we really choose the movie to watch. Yep, we both agak traditional. We don't watch The Hobbit, sebab banyak sangat makhluk rupa pelik dalam tu. Cerita heavy dan technology terlebih pun tak tengok. Takut ada sounds yang tiba-tiba kuat. The baby inside can hear right now. We both memang dah sacrifice tak pergi karok since I tau I pregnant. Risau. Takut baby membesar dengan dengar lagu melalaikan aje. Every parents have their own opinion, and this is our opinion. There is no right and wrong when it's about raising up your own child. :)

We postponed our annivesary vacation last December because of hubs got classes to attend. And now, we are contemplating to proceed with the vacation or not. First, I pun dah tak larat nak berjalan sangat. Sakit bontot is killing me day by day tau. Second, is it okay to travel jauh sikit from KL at this term? I takut terbersalin awal. My instinct, I am going to deliver early than EDD. Risau. Hubs macam tak agree nak pergi bercuti jauh-jauh. Kalau PD dia okay. PD? Owh, nak pergi tempat laen. Sobs. Honeymoon pun pegi PD. Then, there were 2 times we had family vacation there during school holiday. I feel the idea to have a short getaway should be postponed lagik, tapi I kan pelik. Nak the US-time for the last time. Lepas ne dah bertiga. Hmmmmm..

On the other note, I find it hard to carry my own body. People said the same thing too. Nampak susah benar gayanya. Kaki I bengkak sikit je, tapi betis I bengkak sakan betul. Betis I sekarang lagik besar dari betis my husband. Buruk. Kadang-kadang I over cakap I tak proportionate, sebab I nampak cam peha and betis lebih kurang size aje. Sobs :( Boleh ke bengkak kat betis I surut balik lepas deliver. Sebab I tak rasa macam betis I will get back to normal. Boleh ke pakai bengkung kat betis nanti? I think this pregnancy-hormone make me weird la. Yang peliknya, boleh pulak kaki I menampung berat badan dan betis I. Mungkin sebab tu I sakit bontot menyucuk-nyucuk kott.

People kan suka comment sini sana about our body kan? Macam they said perut I tak besar sangat for 33-weeks pregnant (hoiii, I dah rasa besaq gila dah ne), bontot dan breast bagai di pam-pam (kuang hajaq gila). My parents is at my place right now and mom just can't  stop saying lengan I besar. It's true indeed and fyi truth hurts. Haha. Other comments like, nape hidung dengan muka I tak kembang? Hemoih hemoih, being pregnant is not being ugly weh. Dok beharap I turn out into monster je deme ne.

Alhamdulillah, I takde hitam-hitam kat muka or badan for the time being. Stretchmark pun alhamdulillah takde (so far). I must give credit to EMAB Stretch Oil. It do wonder. Alhamdulillah, I still get the pregnancy-glowing effect. Nak glowing sampai lepas bersalin boleh?
Overr. Haha. Despite the body aches everywhere especially kat bontot, the pregnancy had treating me well. I am surely gonna miss these moments.

And lately I found it hard to sleep at night. Macam sesak nafas, nak.termuntah and angin badan buat I tak selesa. Mengiring kiri salah, mengiring ke kanan lagik la salah. Melentang, duduk sume tak boleh. Last night, dekat pukul 4 baru boleh tido, tupun I dah bangun jalan-jalan, light exercise and sapu vapor balm for children kat dada. Seksa. Sebaek weekend. Kalau weekdays memang dah tak pergi kerja today. Time subuh bangun pening pale ya rabbi macam nak hentak pale kat dinding. Pukul 9.30am I dah tak tahan, lepas sidai baju terus tido sampai pukul 2pm. Puas hati. Haha.

Last few nights, I woke up in the middle of the night sebab tak tahan perut menegang macam nak merekah. Sakit ya rabbi. Ada la dekat an hour. I cepat-cepat bukak lampu, I takut perut I merekah betul-betul, pastu pergi cek kot-kot bleeding ke ape. I taktau la Braxton Hicks ke ape, tp BH supposedly on off kan? Ne macam pro-longed for an hour. I ingat I dah nak bersalin dah. First timer la katakan? Baby pun kicking gila-gila, buat betambah tak selesa. Risau betul I. The next day, I monitored baby movements okay je, so I pun rasa lega sikit.

Lately disebabkan syndrome rasa tak ready nak having a baby, I selalu la mimpi bersalin. Bersalin normal, c-sect sume I dah merasa dalam mimpi. Fikir banyak sangat camne la. I lebih kepada cuak, takut actually. Boleh ke I tahan sakit, boleh ke I? Risauuu. Pastu nanti baby dah lahir I nak buat ape dulu? Okay, perempuan ne memang suka fikir unnecessary things and will trigger unnecessary stress jugak. No good, no good.

Girls, please pray for me. Moga sentiasa tenang dan pada masa yang sama dapat prepare myself supaya lebih bersedia. Fuhhhhh....

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IDEA : Organizing Baby Stuff

Salam :)

Happy 2013 girls!!!  I takde perasaan nak celebrate new year dan I memang bukan jenis celebrate pun. I biasa-biasa je. I just excited sebab hari ne public holiday. Haha.

Early morning, my hubs and I had breakfast at Coffee Bean The Curve. Semangat betul pagi-pagi dah pergi sebab hubs nak menom Mocha Latte dari semalam lagik tak dapat-dapat.

Pastu terus pergi IKEA. We wanted to survey drawer/wardrobe for baby stuff. Survey je tak beli pun. Orang ramai sangat by lunch time. Then, we off to Macy sebab nak cari beanbag. Tapi beanbag tu sangat la kecik. Tak jadi beli. Memang hari ne hari tak beli ape-ape.

Btw, the pictures above (from pinterest) might give ideas on how to organize those tiny miny baby stuff. I don't know how I'm going to store/organize my baby stuff yet. How I wish boleh guna bilik depan untuk jadikan nursery. Tapi hubs confirm tak nak mengalah sebab bilik sekarang hubs jadikan mini gym. Mana nak letak besi-besi, kerusi dia sume tu. Sobs. 2nd bedroom pulak adalah guest room, tempat tido my parents, my abang and my SILs kalau dorang overnight sini. Terpaksa sumbat suma kat Master Bedroom. How I wish we have a bigger house so that we can have lots of rooms. Boleh buat walk-in closet and prayer room. Hamboih kau kalau boleh berangan kan?

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah rezeki kami suami isteri. Aminnn~

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