Forgive-Forget

What a challenging week for me :(


With the reception dress turn to disastrous. And how the tailor don't really care with my opinion/comments.
And 'he' kept on saying, "chantek..chantek.." whathefish? I am the one who will wear that dress kot.
Seriously, I cant sleep the whole night. After thoroughly thinking, discussions, my fiance and I decided to make a whole new dress for the Kedah reception. Not exactly a dress, because time is not permitted so I have to go for kurung modern as for the reception outfit. Tak sempat dah nak patch lace bagai. Redha. I know it will turn out to be so simple and the guests yang datang mungkin lagi vogue dari pengantin tetapi apakan daya, as long as I am confident enough with what I'm wearing, I believed it will still be my day. Pray hard, everything will turn out well.




Forget about the negative vibes yang keep on surround me for the pas few days. Let's forgive, forget and move on. I percaya takde rezeki but terkilan tetap ada. Dugaan nak tengok I gelabah-kuat ke idak. Hee.


I am going back to my hometown in a few minutes. Pray that I have a safe journey back home to Kedah. I believed the journey will be such a long time wasted on the road. And hoping that I can get ample-comfortable sleep in the car. (I am the useless co-driver. Haha). Also, lots of things can be settled when I am back home, like the legal stuff, outfit for my family, bunga pahar and VIP doorgift. 


So, let's have a pericous time with family. Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha. Selamat Hari Raya Korban. And let us together remembering the sacrifice made by Nabi Ibrahim a.s. Moga-moga kisah Nabi Ibrahim a.s bisa menerbitkan lebih rasa kecintaan, kesedaraan bahawa 'selfish' is not the word that should be belong to human. Dan kita hidup hanya bukan untuk diri sendiri sahaja. 


Salam and happy holiday :)

Salam salam salam salam

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Hai girls!! How are you doing at the end of Ramadhan? 
For me, Im going to miss this Ramadhan. Because, i started seeing the month of Ramadhan in different ways.
It's not about food. It's not about restrain myself from hunger and thirsty. It's more than that.


Alhamdulillah..I fully utilized my time in a good way. Even sedikit penat macam tak cukup rehat.
Tapi nikmat dan kepuasan tak ternilai. That's answering why I rarely updated this blog of mine.


During weekends, I was busy helping my FPIL at their Kedai. Maklum lah, kedai baju melayu, time nak raya memang sesak. I have to curi-curi masa, iron baju for work, spring cleaning and the other kerja rumah. Agak penat tapi I suka. It made me realized betapa susah nak cari rezeki. Of course, bila penat ja I straight away thinking how parents bersusah-payah besarkan I and my brother dengan hanya meniaga kecil-kecilan di Pendang. 


Due to tight budget, I dont have new shoes, handbags, make-up, accessories like others. I juga takde budget nak ikot  my colleagues for manicure, pedicure and massage. Deep down sape taknak kan? But seriously I cant afford any of it. My baju raya? I only bought 1 material during my visit to Bandung. The other two was given by FMIL. Satu belum sempat tempah, the rest InshaALLAH siap a day before Raya. I don't have gala meriah Raya this year. I dont even have new tudung. I'll use the sedia ada tudung sahaja. 

I'm not looking forward untuk bergaya chantek di hari Raya. I just want to be home safely, having my favourites Raya dishes. And I think I had reach a stage whereby I really looking forward untuk ziarah-menziarah, bermaafan, terima kunjungan tetamu. Sound like orang tua kan? :p

The most important thing, I want to be around my family. Called me sentimental, but yeah I rasa laen macam sikit, as this year might be the last year I Raya as a single person. Bukan dah kawen maksudnya tak bole nak spend time dengan family, tapi sedikit sebanyak laen tuh tetap ada kan? Or it just my feelings?


Sebelum I melalut makin panjang, let's stop it here. 

Just so you know, Im going back to my hometimes, few minutes from now. Pray that I have a safe journey home. I should take a nap for a while so better I stop babling. 

Before that. just wanna wish you SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN. Maaf jika ada terkasar bahasa, secara sengaja mahupun tidak sengaja jika I ada menyentuh perasaan mana-mana pihak. Sesungguhnya yang baik datangnya dari Allah, yang buruk datang dari kelemahan diri saya sendiri.

Hope you girls have a safe journey back home too and have a blessed Raya ahead. Take care and jangan main mercun. :)

Mother's Day

**it’s a belated mother’s day entry..haha**


Happy Mother’s Day to my beloved mother.
No words can describe how much I owe her, it’s like I owe her everything in my life.

Since I was small, I keep praying that I will die first before my parents. It’s just because I don’t think I can bear the losses, I don’t think I can go through my life without them. Seriously, I sounded so selfish. My mother once told me, ‘Sapa nak doakan mak kalau Deq aa mati dulu dr mak?’. sobs


I can easily dengan muka-tak-malu told my mother I have boyfriend.But, I am not that type of person who goes straight to my mother and told her, ‘I Love You’ and not that type of person who just express my feeling towards her straight into her eyes. Segan owh..

So, only occasion macam birthday&mother’s day je I bole anta kad comel-comel cakap I love her and how glad I am to be her daughter.

And macam sangat touching giler, masa balik hometown, nak pinjam tudung mak. Masa tarik-tarik tudung I found out all the cards yang I pernah bagi kat mak selama ne.

Then I know, my mother pun macam I jugak, very hard to express feelings. Yeah, we don’t have to say it, because deep down both of us know.

Tgk tak iklan silky girl, yang Dafi & Sharifah Amani tu?..
’org ckp kalau nk tgk muka kite ble tua nnt, tgk muka mak kte skang’
(I rephrase sket ayat Dafi ne)
and.... Im absolutely sure,nanti dah tua I akan cantek mcm mak I jugak. Hehe

Mak,
Thanks for everything.
Thanks. Thanks. Thanks.